here, some userinfo.txt
i am here only to talk absolute shit and nonsense to you, i have no intentions of improving the looks of this thing. there is no dates for when i write these (unless u can see when i updated the page on neocities) and the order of-lets call em logs- will be newest to eldest.
no, you cant contact me. fuck yeah u can contact me! email via gobacktomonkey(at)disroot(dot)org
i will add a couple things if i feel like it.
thx
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when your on the track you see ahead and you see the opposite, you see you and everything around you very clearly and you know in your mind it can be grasped.
suddenly, out of extremely thin fucking air, you see the old "pal". this old pal of yours seemed like butter on bread, but he was cunning and manipulative. youve taken the offering before, only to realise the butter is moldy, the bread is stale. youve been tricked. the society youve desperately tried to escape is back at face value and its gonna be difficult to get out.
when your thrown of the rails by this cunt, what do you do? do you beat them senselessly over all the suffering and regret theyve caused you, or do you reunite and be used again as a weak minded pussy?
im trying so hard, i dont know if ill make it back but i have ambitions , hopes and dreams i wish to fulfill. i will fulfill them, fuck your self.
where you dont feel happy, you dont feel sad, theres no angry or jeliousy, disgust or fear. your just there, its not an empty feeling but its definitely empty. you dont know why or where feeling nothing came from, you just know its there. i havent felt that for about a year but its starting to come back to me, something somewhere isnt working in my head and i dont know if fix is even the right word.
theres a lot of good shit in this world, i just dont ever find the motivation to see it. i feel like ive done some things and theres often change in yourself when exposed to the things you do, but am i changing or am i acting around the changes? does that make sense to you, cunt?
i sometimes think about the way my eyes perceive reality, like putting myself in a 3rd person watching myself watch the world and doing stuff, its trippy i guess, i dont know im just rambling.
im just gonna go back to /gif, theres a new gondola thread and i wanna see some before i go to bed.
i know you dont care, but sorry anyways for off for a week or two, the internet broke :/ and nobody knew why. my boss has been ill too so ive had 0 work just college. it was like summer last week but this week its just been freezing with little bits of snow. pretty fucking crazy if you ask me (which you didnt).
bit of an odd one but ive been listening to ace of base alot recently, shits pretty good in a weird way i think either the sign or happy nation being my favourite out of them. i made a mail with disroot for here, hell yeah u can totally send me cool pngs of your cats or 21st century memes! (or 20th, if there were any) ill make a gpg when im bothered to okay? and then u tinfoil hatted frens can send me encrypted pngs too (can u send pngs with gpg?)ill leave it in the stuff bit which is at the top.
anyways thats all i came here to say, i hope you have a good goody good fryday and ill do something somewhere later
so yeah my good ol' dell optiplex decided it didnt want to turn on like last week, not sure why but i finally decided to get it out and see whats up with it.
i literally just wacked it twice put some tape on the hdd to stop the hdd flopping around and it just wercs, thats computer science for ya!
and now i have an onion site! at the moment all i really host is personal pages and shit loads of webms(that i dont own) but its enough for now, as time will go itll grow and maybe even be slightly useful to some people. anyways heres the address and ill link it at the top too: http://3tos77aaifoqn7pxfp5ssg6o6lzo6p5bpyfsbya4hfyjdit6qwncvayd.onion/
yeah ive had a fairly good week. at colle ge i spend breaks with the boys drinking g&ts in the park, its been really sunny for the most part this week which has made me more motivated to werc, friday felt really good too like i was doing alot that day like i got a whole side up with the new guy (btw theres a new guy) and we didnt do very good but it wasnt that bad either so i was happy to see im making progress. some guy was trying to sell me nike air shoes at 9pm on friday, said i could only see them if i went in his car and i said to my gf "thats (insert place here) for ya".
ive gotten 6 chapters into a book. im extremely proud of myself and will continue to read more shit. ive now started to read stuff about driving alongside the usual shit i read because my father said if i passed my test he would buy me a van, so i got a book on the highway code and a book about traffic signs and im gonna do an online theory mock test and keep practising that shit yo so i can cruise the streets.
anyways im gonna let you go now, ive still got a couple cans of san miguel left and id rather waste them now than later, i hope your doing well and ill speak to you again soon!
same shit, different day. im in a groundhog day, and i want to do things that i havent done before. my fucking bike got fucked yesterday, i left it at my gfs house for like 1 or 2 weeks, went to ride it to work only to realise the tires flat! i think fuck it and continue riding it but after a while the inner tube decides to flop out and get tangled in muh wheel. not very happy. i cant wait to get a car and worry about something worse happening.
oh and ive sort of got half a website ready to get thrown onto an onion and eep, and i was totally gonna do it this weekend but my fucking computer decided to die on me. like its an old shitty dell optiplex that wouldve been more than perfect but it just looked at me and said look buddy i cant deal with this shit ive been sat in your shed doing fuck all for far too long i just cant. so yeah im waiting for my brother to give me my t60 back cuz he left it at my dads and my dads is like a 40 minute drive away. maybe ill just look for another shitty computer, theres always one about but yeah coming soon i guess.
do you think i should write a book? i just feel like i could make one, not for anything serious but im starting to feel more comfortable typing words and thinking of shit to say so i thought like why tf not, i havent got any ideas for one as of now but maybe something about the way things are right now or about wanting to live away from all the bullshit in life and how thats fairly impossible now. i just thought about it yeah i might just make a few more pages on this instance of neocities. like i want to make one showing some of my work and i wanna make one thats just like got photos i wanna share and emphasize on them. well see what happens, i think you know how bothered i usually am (extremely, and theres buts).
oh yeah and fuck google, fuck bing, fuck edge and all that shit right: i was looking for a streaming site on my gfs laptop to watch pulp fiction cuz shes never seen it (shes basically just disconnected from reality in a way where she doesnt know anything good) and she obviously just uses whatever gets thrown in her face (windows, edge, bing and google) and when i searched something simple like "stream sites" or "stream movies" it would come up with stupid shit like ydio or something similar where the search engine would only reccomend services you have to pay for. my natural response was fuck off and then i went to yandex.ru and searched the same thing and boom, almost instantly i get pages upon pages of pirate glory. the fist site worked perfectly too man just fuck googs and bings lol. and yeah pulp fiction pretty fucking sick film, its like 3 stories in 1 and they all link up in a way. couldnt beleive she hasnt watched it before.
thanks again for reading this, its nice to blow off my mind and dump it all here. and yeah this might be a waste of space on the internet, i might be better off just writing this in a .txt file stored away forgotten about but is anything on this fucking mess not a waste of space? a double edged sword. oh how i do love you, yet fucking hate you so much at the same thought and time.
chaio11!!and everytime its pancake day, i play that song from adventure time, make what the song says, add golden syrup and lemon then bam enjoy pancake day. For some this day doesnt really mean shit and thats because their too miserable to enjoy life and actually enjoy life through suffering and misery, but for me it really does feel special, because i really do just love pancakes and i think that if it werent for pancake day id be miserable too, the weathers pretty wet today and i nearly got a cold from being out in it all day, but i know its worth it because pancakes are there at the end of this day and ill know to bring waterproof stuff for tomorrow.
i would ask you what you have on pancake day but you cant because i wont let you so it literally doesnt matter. but do you know what does matter? and whats grinding my gears to do this? and is a complete subject change from pancake day? fucking tescos.
tescos made their stupidly fucking amazing meal deals 50p more expensive than usual, was just 3 quid.
but actually, they still in fact do sell their meal deals for 3 quid, like genuinely their still 3 pound and theres a but, a catch and a cunt:
which again, fucking sucks. why cant they just keep it 3 fucking pound? whats the difference? so you can get my email or something freetarded? i do use my brothers clubcard, but why should i have to man fuck. what if i dont have his clubcard and i want a meal deal but i cant get one cuz i thought i had enough then i dont? fuck you.
im (((trying))) to read, it sometimes goes well, but othertimes like the rest of my generation i get distracted. im happy to say though that i have the ability to read 2 whole pages a night :D rather than none of course and compared to everyone else i think thats a pretty big acheivement today. like some other people on the internet obviously know that i cant go past two pages because im talking to them on the internet and their right, could do with not talking to them. what am i even talking about? i dont talk to anyone, im literally talking to myself right now.. im just sat in my room alone tapping on a stupid fucking screen. do you know how much happier i am when the internet goes off? like i actually feel alive in the real world again. but it doesnt happen, were all so reliant its shit i just want to go away somewhere sunny do something thats actually significant and live away from phones, laptops, places with smart devices or not so smart devices. like what the fuck are we doing in our rooms? im not gaining anything out of this im just sat here rotting like a vegetable. sorry im getting carried away with words, im just so fucking tired of living the way i am right now. im not old enough to go off yet and i really do rely on these machines right now, that need will probably become more and more but until then im still young and i can enjoy the idea of it all. i know what i want to do but its not going to happen yet so im gonna use time as if it were my bitch then get there. im actually happy.
happy pancake day by the way
long time ago, but i had one where i was in a car with some randos, we were driving around my area,there was a girl with blonde hair sitting on a wall and a cat near some shops which for some reason my dream was fixated on for a moment. we all get out the car and suddenly the sky turns red and i say to myself welcome to hell. i then proceed to go into the shop and buy a chocolate bar. the end.
for some this happens straight away, for others it could take decades but for me it only took roughly 10 months. i go to her house (her mums lol) on the weekends for bvoius reasons and often times we get takeaways or just pot noodles n shit and its just not that great and actually expensive. i said to her like hey why dont you cook something and she was like ok what and i was idk just make something and oh my god she can fucking cook.
you know that one meme thats like "bitches born after 1993 cant cook"? well my bitch knows how to cook. she does the things the memes say but she also cooks, good enough for me, i thought her being able to do something was way sexier than just wearing a short skirt and asking me to fuck.
so i see some people and they go around in a tipper and just collect random shit on the pavement so they can scrap it for cash and survive and i thought wow making money off shit thats somewhat valuable but looks like garbage? yes please. im not thinking about going behind foodstores and stealing expired food, people actually do that and im like wow thats pretty unhygenic but if it works for you then i cant really judge, i think i might go like behind tech stores and see if they do any good shite there, although i feel certain that this is already happening and i will have trouble finding good stuff. its a treasure hunt going through bins, sounds like a thrill rather than a way of life to me.
this is a rhetorical question seeming as ive given no way to contact me. my attention span is probably as fucked as yours so i can only assume its easier like this init. ive got an onion in the works that id like to share with the warudo, might make its eeped too if i can figure out how that works. not sure weather to make it clean basic and simple with just mainly text (as it really should be) or to add some css and make it look like shit but in a semi usable way. thanks for reading this btw i see statistics on the neocities thingy and yeah people have actually looked at it like wow sick cant lie, btw if i did an onion and self hosted i wouldnt give this up thisd be my clearnet im just making spooky net sites because i know that some people dont like clearnet and would rather pretend to be a hacker with 2tb of child porn on their thinkpad (like me :D(sorry thats not really something to joke about is it :/)), heard russia did some bombing or whatever, dont really care but quite thankful because i dont hear about cvd as much now cuz ww3 is big focuse now and thats preferable. i hope your doing well, im going night night now i got fucking college tomorrow and idk if i can be bothered but whatever. till next time when i actually make up something not uninteresting
i want to talk more about the first thing i did on this s(h)ite, i literally just said a pile of shit that didnt make any sense. this entire site where i just spout shit that doesnt make sense is pretty embarrassing in my opinion but it really doesnt matter because most of you are probably just gonna think lol what a beta normie incel who cant even write a basic blog properly and then move on.
and your right. but who needs anything fancy to write a fucking blog? this one im gonna emphasize more on what i first said and try to make a bit more sense on it
in my opinon, the internet is and now always will be nothing more than an extremely unhealthy distraction from people functioning properly in their what once was a normal life. my evidence would be to very simply look at what everyone does, when i see it all i see are people whipping their latest iphone or samsung, opening their favourite social media (whether that be facecuck, twatter, instafag snapcrack etc) and giving away each and every braincell to these botnet corporate dickwads thinking they gain something out of it when really their just ruining their lives and getting caught in one of those dopamine loop traps we all know and for some love.
to the people that do do this, how much time do you spend on it? what do you do? what do you gain from it? does it help with your day to day lives? and please dont lie to me here. i was the exact same. i used to suck the teat of social media a couple of years ago, i would follow everyone i could learn eveything about their days engage in random conversations make weird "friendships" post memes cry when i see sad shit and get pissed off when i saw any political shit. its left me with no real friends and a fairly sized feeling of disconnection from reality.
i dont think just social media is bad either, im basing this off of my own personal experiences and data consumption but i feel like the majority of internet monkeys could understand what im saying and where im coming from. this cyberspace hasnt been alive for a long time. when some random cunt hears the word internet or www or something shit like that they think fagman or whatever the stupid acronym is, i think they now have the power which was once ours. there are many people trying to fight for that power back, but i think its too far away now for any of us to get it back. the centralised bits have taken normies by storm and theres no way we could go against it, no reason or logic could ever go through their heads because they got zucced so hard and lost their will to a cyborg sent from satan himself.
there are a few sites out there that are still pretty golden. neocities is a lovely place filled with a variety of lovely people. ive looked at the webring on lainchan and thought wow, this is some beautiful shit. i hate the internet, its ruined everyones lives. cant we go back to the way it was? like fuck man :/
okay so the first one which i think is the absolute best one is to do a fight club and blow up everything, all the servers powering this decrepid landfill, murder the heads of fagman, obliterate operating systems and only use technology for simple things like powering yer favourite radio station or making a printer or a nuclear plant werk. the other option which is 99% impossible would be to get all normies to buy a computer thingy for self hosting, have them make their own website and services and completely disregard centralised platforms which would then make those platforms turn to dust and have things back the way they sort of were. and finally i think the other option is we end up sucking this planet dry of energy and anything powered by electricity will be completely useless, making us really turn back to monkey and then we can really get on living an actual good life.
in my day to day life i try to minimalise what i do electronically and do real things and try to do it with other people. at the moment electronally i have a ps2 for muh games (dont rlly use it), a button phone for work and alarms and texting my gf(shes a cutie), and a thinkpad for whatever shitty consumption i have in mind. what i really want but i know will never happen is to get rid of all my shit, and continue with nothing but the physical world, it seems kind of impossible at the moment but i recon when society has a mini collapse ill be able to give my self the determination to try it.
for realistic expectations, im going to keep using a phone for what their intended for, and as the title of this entry thingy i want to start fucking around with templeos. its really peaked my interest and i would love to develop it for all kinds of things (maybe even as a daily driver), yeah i guess it is just a stupid idea but aside from the big consoom theres not much i do on this laptop and i want to do something that could make me feel like im doing something with my laptop aside from ricing arch or trying to be anonymous as possible even tho thats now impossible. i dont really know where to start as i know fuck all about "programming" so its gonna be a lil bit tricky but ill get through.
anyways thats all i really wanted to say, i hope your all having a good sunday :) tomorrows gonna be shit cuz its monday but just think about friday baby! ill type in this again later, see ya!
so basically im gonna give you a list of ingrediants, often found in corner shops or your standard shit shop like coop or tescos. idk if youll find these ingredients outside of the uk or not. probably but oh well and if your from america just fuck you and your insane standards for food (none)
get yer saucepan, follow the instructions for making the supernoodles that are on the packet (water in saucepan, stick the noods in and flavour etc etc) and let that do its thing till its nearly cooked. then put the heat on low and let it sit whilst you do the next bits. now get yer bacon out and get as many slices as you desire on a surface, cut the bacon into small peices, id recommend using scissors instead of a knife its just better trust me. get a frying pan out with something to oil it up (like butter or quite simply, cooking oil i dont care), throw all your bacon bits in it on a high asf heat. cook those little bastard peices for as long as you like till its right(for you), after their cooked move them all to one side to allow for a couple eggs to go on there. and yes, get the fucking eggs in there now! low heat for eggs cuz eggs cook quick and high heat will fuck them up BADLY. when you throw them in stab the yolk cuz its just nice like that. once the eggs are cooked and the bacons ready, its time to chuck the fuckers in the saucepan with the noods!!! stirr the fucker, mix the bits into it and get a bowl ready pronto. ok writing a thing about cooking is so fucking hard. halfway through writing most of this i thought where is this going wtf. anywaysif you think its good enough put into a bowl, and for the final part splodge your favourite sauce around the bacon bits and throw a load of vinager over it, why vinager? because i loves it.
i feel embarrassed but whatever no one knows who i am its fine. im pretty young and ive only started to drink properly now so i cant honestly say how effective this would be for others, but for me when i have a fucking massive headache in the morning after a decent amount of liquids went in the night before, this little bowl of joy has helped me with it quite a lot. the irn bru is more preference, but fuck i just think it tastes so good :p
so yeah anyways im thinking about doing a bit more to this site, like i want to have a banner and an icon for a bit more recognition, i might make an email for you fuckers to contact me (though why would you considering this site is nothing more than me spilling some of my conscience which is cringe), make a "personality" section maybe, and i want to share the gondolas ive saved. i would like to host the gondolas here but i fear for the lack of storage and i dont want to make a page just filled with a shit load of requests for other pages. anyways yeah bye for now i might talk to you again next week.
listen yeah im too drunk to say anything significant (not that i can say anything significant anyways) but like i just wanted to say like im really glad i decided to live even in like the time i was doing nothing it was a boring bt nice time like i lost myself for a while but through this fucking shitty computer connecting to other computers controlled by people i kind of felt better and im greatful for that
but anyways im rambling about shit that dont even make sense, i smashed my phone yesterday (iphone 5s) and im thinking about downgrading back into an old button phone. i want an old nokia they were fucking amazing. like all i nead is calls and text but i would love music and gondolas n pepes on there too but its hard with smartphones cuz i dont want iphone and i dont want google but i dont want to spend alot and i want something decent but theres nothing inbetween at all its like fuck.
but anyways my lovers i hope your having a really great friday i hope the sun is shining ypur having plenty drinks and lots of fun its a celebration babyyyy! ill think about writing more next time. bye bye!
every second you use your eyes and human meat brain on this industrial metal stress inducing dopamine destroying blinking light screen,and it leaves you fucked. So fucked that you cant even think for yourself anymore.
i cant believe it. you single-handedly managed to destroy your entire brain and future by buying a phone and using the internet.
i just cant deal with this shit anymore. i grew up alongside certain parts of this "place", not thinking about what im doing or what i would gain from it. its crazy how it went from a nerdy dreamland with either amazing personal sites to extreme botnet, cuck pornography and ads.
im only going to use this for shit i need to do, and thats it. im gonna kick the shit out of my smart phone and buy a nokia 3310. im gonna sell all my electronics. im gonna read a book. fucking hell whens the last time you read a book?